I was stinkin' nervous.
So nervous...it took me until close to the end of our time to finally blurt it out.
You know when you open your mouth but nothing comes out?
Yep...that happened to me too many times.
Needless to say I blurted it out there and to my surprise she was 100% on board. Jamie encouraged me, brainstormed with me, and dreamed with me. I left feeling excited and so blessed. And that's where it began.
I talked with Jamie's husband, my youth pastor, Danny Schulz. We made a plan and began going down the list of people we had to talk with to get approval. Those few weeks were the most thrilling, outrageous, and slightly agonizing weeks I walked through. Having to wait for that last approval was like pulling teeth. I felt like it couldn't come fast enough.
And there it was.
I woke up in the middle of the night to an email.
The answer was yes.
I can finally sleep!
I was stunned at how fast God opened doors to make this trip possible. And was equally in shock that I, the girl who is afraid of any sort of insect, was traveling to Uganda. But, in my spirit...I knew this was right. I had heard from God, I could hear His heart for this trip, and I am going.
My life will never be the same.
And I couldn't be happier.
All the last details came into place like dates and a few extra decisions. But the final cherry on the top was my conversation I had to have with my boss at the time. I was going to ask him if I could take a leave of absence.
Quick background on my boss.
I knew Larry at my previous job, then moved to my current job to work for him.
Him and his wife, Teena, are people I have grown very close with.
At the time of this conversation he was my boss...
....but, now I don't call him my boss, they are family.
(Rabbit Trail: turned into a bigger blessing than I knew it would).
And as excited as I was to share the news I was beyond nervous. It felt like torture to keep all of this from them, but there was no need to ruffle any feathers before I had all the details.
Before I knew it.
The day came.
It was funny.
I was awkward, they new something was up, & I waited all night to spill the beans.
But - when I did...
It was the best conversation that was had since Uganda was brought up.
There was a mix of sweaty palms (me), some excited screaming (Teena knew that Uganda was a dream), and even some teary eyes. It was a conversation I'll never forget. One that God strategically orchestrated that has shaped the trip and even who I am.
With no doubt in their minds I had my job when I came back. I left their house astounded. And came home with tears in my eyes happily telling my mom about not only my job, but also about this new dynamic to our relationship that was birthed.
So, there you have it. God poured out blessings upon blessings. And I still enjoy reflecting on those couple short months seeing how God moved and His master craftsmanship at display in my life.
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