Early Morning Thoughts

I woke up this morning with my giant to-do list running through my brain. Now, that's a good sign that I must have a lot to do for that list to impeded on the thoughts of, "morning Rose." I could list all that was running through my brain, but I think it might just bore you, so I'll save you that extra yawn and continue on.

At one moment, as I could visually see bullet-point after bullet-point be added to my list, I started to feel a bit bogged down. My list contained a lot of small things that seem to just keep popping up. I just came from a quick weekend get-away with our Youth Staff and was incredibly stirred by what was poured into my life. To shove it all in one sentence: I am called to be a Kingdom Builder, at my age, not living the average life, to see those that the Lord sent His only son to die for come to know who He is. This last weekend has consumed my thoughts. I have decided to not sit in the grey area, but become a revolutionary. So, of course I find myself standing in front of the mirror getting ready for work frustrated. Frustrated, at the thought that I can't seem to reach, "the point," that I need to be at to start walking & fully functioning in the call God has placed on my life. As these thoughts started to flow like the current of a river that so easily will catch you off guard and carry you down stream, the stream came to a sudden halt and these words were so softly spoken:

"This is your calling and purpose, don't walk pass it." 

There was God's voice, so simple, yet so bold. The NXT was brought to my attention and the many faces I know I will be seeing tonight started to flash into my thoughts. It was so simple. I am walking in my ministry. I got caught up in my long day ahead of me, the endless to-do list, discouragement, that I completely missed all the young people right at my finger tips waiting to hear about the love of God. Young people that are desperately searching for whom I get to meet with every single day.

THIS IS IT! 

This is the life. I was stirred from this weekend, but forgot all that the Lord has set before me. All the precious people I come into contact daily that He is desiring to show Himself to. This is it! This is the life my heart so desperately desires, but I have to be willing to see it. And, see it through His eyes.

I walked out of the front door this morning excited. Excited to see tons of young people meet with Him tonight. Excited to know that God has so graciously given me the words to speak to that person who needs to hear three simple words, "I love you," from the Almighty God. I am excited to know that the same heart He has for those people is the very Heart that calls out to me when I start to get bogged down by stupid little bullet-points. 

My God is big. My God is faithful. My God is loving. I am beyond blessed to know He calls me His.